Speechless

I decided to blog in Malay. I hope it'll be comprehensible by you.

Tak faham. Langsung tak faham. Kadang-kadang rasa macam tak berbaloi langsung berbuat baik demi orang lain, berkorban tak pasal pasal (ini tidak termasuk kawan kawan rapat dan keluarga). Orang yang dianggap macam kawan biasa biasa ni bahaya sangat. Tak akan pernah terlintas dalam minda yang dorang boleh buat macamtu. The worst part is, mungkin kita dicaci dan dimaki oleh benda yang kita tak pernah buat. Dan paling merimaskan ialah, semua yang berlaku seolah olah kita ni sungguh jahat dan tak berperikemanusian. Macam kita tak pernah fikirkan perasaan dia at the first place, macam kita tak selalu pulak rasa nak give up dan lepas kan saja perasaaan hati yang mula berkembang dulu. Kenapa ye? Bila kita buat baik dengan orang yang kawan biasa biasa je ni, selalu disalah anggap. Kita dah tunjukkan effort nak baik semua, ingat kan dah okay la. Rupa rupa nya tak. Kenapa ye? Tak pernah ke dorang fikir pasal perasaan kita pulak? Kenapa semua orang macamni ye?

You don't know what I've been thru and what I've done for you and your every sake since before. Even now I'm still sacrificing and being so nice. I know I could do worser and meaner. That's why. But I won't. I know better than to go embarrassing myself trying to ruin someone's life. I am not like that. I've grown better. Maybe you never know, and you never will, and it's not that I really want to be appreciated for everything I've done, no not at all, but at least don't be selfish. Don't judge me just like that as if I've done shits to you. No don't do that. It's not even close to a slightest bit of fair. I was so bumped. I thought everything is settled and that we all could finally have our own happiness. Guess not. Just yet.

xx